Falling Up ... and exiting the fall.

How do I deal with learning.

I don't know.

I wish learning wans't so painful,

but then I guess we'd never really learn.

I guess next time I shouldn't say what's on my heart.

I guess next time I shouldn't get so caught up.

I guess next time I shouldn't...

NO.

Next time I SHOULD think things through.

Next time I SHOULD listen to both, my head and heart.

Next time I SHOULD...

Should what?

There's no perfect solution.

There's no fight, no "big problem."

It's always the same,

"I don't know what I want."

"Our futures don't match up."

"I need to focus and not be distracted."

Good to know I'm:

confusing

only present

and

distracting.

Well, I know what I want.

Not a fling.

Not a convenience.

Love isn't convenient.

And it isn't easy.

But it is worth fighting for.

I'm not mad.
I'm just not a toy.

Even though I wish we could stay together and work it out,

rather than running away...

I exited the fall and now it's over.

I'm learning it's all before my heart.

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"From the shallows enough

to the depths of your scars

you know you want to change

In the rafters of fate

fixed and spinning late

there is a certain fear

...

I found a way out through

everything I've known

I'm walking fearless put

my faith down and all that I own

...

 Call it what you wanna

call it all a game

call it insane

all of these voices

...

So exit the fall and now it's over

you're learning it's all before your heart

so exit the fall and now it's over

you're learning it's all before your heart"