Friday, July 9, 2010

3 months to this day.

I can honesty say I was doing very well, 
until July 4th came. 
That holiday holds more pain for me than any other holiday. 

The past few weeks I've found myself listening to many back-atcha/super single songs. 
Although he never lied, cheated or physically hurt me,
I guess I like to think these songs relate to my "hurting, aching heart."
Or maybe, I'm just a pansy.

"Love the Way You Lie" by Eminem. 
"Impossible" by Shantell
"Photographs" by Rihanna
"Ridin Solo" by Jason Derulo
"Bulletproof" by La Roux
But today (5 min ago), which marks 3 months, 
all I can think of is what do I say now. 

We needed to say what we needed to say. 
The truth hurts. 
If it didn't hurt, it wouldn't be the right thing. Right?

I'm challenging myself to say what needs to be said. 
While practicing self control. 
Together, both are quite difficult.

But I need to say...what I need to say. 
I just don't know if I have enough guts to say it to him.