Monday, May 31, 2010

The Switch

Last night I made the switch. 
Although it's only been one month and three weeks since we broke up, 
I still  hadn't changed my facebook status. 

We agreed that we wouldn't made our breakup a big deal, 
therefore keeping it low key so people wouldn't know. 
But I'm tired of people asking how he's doing, 
when I'm going  to see him next, 

I hate seeing the look on their face when I say, 
"I don't really know. 
We broke up almost 2 months ago, 
so I really don't know what he's doing at all now."

I know his friends saw my changed relationship status. 
Got a few "shocked" comments. 
I hope he's not hurt from me making it public now. 
It was just hurting me keeping it a secret.


 "Breathe in breathe out, 
move on and break out...
We push and pull, 
and I fall down sometimes...

Cause there is a light, in your eyes.
Hold on and hold tight,  
and if I'm out of your sight, 
everything keeps moving on, movin' on. 
Hold on, hold tight,
Make it through another night,  
Cause everyday, there comes a song with the dawn.

Saturday, May 29, 2010


"Love, love is a verb,
Love is a doing word,
Fearless on my breathe.

Gentle impulsion, 
Shakes me, makes me lighter, 
Fearless on my breathe. 

Teardrop on the fire, 
Fearless on my breathe...

Stumbling a little,
Stumbling a little"

Fearless on my breathe.

Friday, May 28, 2010


Sometimes I cheat.
And look at his facebook page. 
Although we aren't facebook friends anymore, I can still see most of his site because his isn't set on private like mine is. 

Today I saw his latest album. 

He's growing out his hair. 
[which is something I alway wished he would do]
He's taking much more pictures. 
[which is something I always asked him to do]
He's taking his pictures using the same style as I do.
[which is something that interests me]

I, on the other hand, 
Am not changing anything about my appearance.
Am taking a signifigant less amount of pictures. 
Am trying to switch up my photography style.

i don't know what's going through his head. 
i wish i knew what was going through my own. 

Maybe someday I'll understand.
And know the truth. 
Do I believe him? Or everyone else?
I chose to believe my heart; him.

Someday, I will understand. 

Saturday, May 15, 2010

"I am here to stay"

"My tired heart is beating slow...
we do not know...
it is not said I always know...

You can't catch me,
though you run, you run...
the fire's here to stay...
it is not said I always know...

The wonder of it all,
I am here to stay, I am here to stay,

Friday, May 14, 2010

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

How I Deal With Heartbreak?

Can I switch it up a little?
the distance is over... but the heart is now broken.
I've dealt with distance, but how do i deal with heartbreak?

Does he think of me?
as much as i think of him....

How could he move on so quickly?
i sure haven't...

  Does he miss me?
       at all...

Why is it so much harder than i thought it would be?
my heart just isn't this strong...
Why can't I cry?
when i want to...
"Leave me paralyzed, love...
leave me hypnotized, love..."

leave me.