the great escape?

 

"I had a dream I could fly...

still wonder if I can fly, or if it was just a dream. 

Think I was searching for something, 

not knowing what I had to face. 

Until I found out the reason, 

that's when I made my great escape." 

ponder

This morning I was going to post the song "Riding Solo" by Jason Derulo.
It's about going solo after ending a relationship.
Moving on past the pain, and enjoying a new life.

But today I worked at a wedding as an assistant photographer,
and I just couldn't help but think of him,
and our plan of marriage
(that would have been in a few years).

Today reminded me that I'm back at zero,
back at the beginning,
and when the bride's maids tried hooking me up with the bride's younger brother
and the single ladies gathered to catch the bouquet...
It reminded me of where I am.

Right now I'm not in a negative mood or a rejoicing mood.
Just a pondering, reflective mood.
And this song is appropriate for that.

 Hmmm...  i wish i knew my own thoughts.

Tired

Why.The.Hell.Do.I.Miss.Him.So.Much.

I can't pull myself together tonight. 

I feel so alone. 

But why?!

I'm tired of this. 

A good day here, a bad night there. 

NO.

I wanna get off the see-saw, climb back up the ladder and finally slide down the slide into a refreshing pool.

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They say for every year you dated, that's how many months it'll take to get over the relationship. 

I have a feeling it's going to take much more than four months to get over him. 

I still love him.